Remember that time...

...when I used to blog? Yeah. Me too. Its been almost two months now. I kind of forgot about blogging with all the craziness that has been going on in my life. Which I guess is okay because none of the things going on in my life, that have made it crazy, are things i really wanna blog about.

So...I here is what I will tell you about.

I did P90X today for the first time! Chest and Back. And I totally rocked it. I mean I was totally sweating and working hard. I think over the hour workout I did 200 pushups, 30 pull ups (with help) and lots of other various arm stuff. ANNNNNNDDDD...that was my second workout for today. I worked out with my PT this morning. We did squats and other leg machines. You know that point when you are working out that your legs (arms, or whatever you are working) feel like jello? well, I passed that point this morning. At one point I told him that I couldn't feel them anymore. I looked down to make sure they were still there. and they were. but i couldn't feel them at all. He just smiled. I think he gets enjoyment out of my suffering. lol

but seriously!

And on another note, I am writing more of my story. I wrote a pretty amazing first kiss scene. haha Get excited!!

4th of July

Happy Independence Day America. I had a three day weekend. Like most people. I don't usually get my three day weekends because they always want us to work. So I was excited.

On Friday night I went to Lori's birthday party at a friend's house. Good food and good friends. What more can you ask for in an evening? :)

Saturday i mostly bummed around and then went with Bre to Winstar. It is a casino in Oklahoma. I went in with a small amount of money to play with. I lost it all, but i supposed i expected that. We didnt get home til 6 am. It was fun.

Church on Sunday, and then a very long nap afterwards.

Monday (today) i started to pack my apartment and did soooooooo much laundry. Like, so much. It is all piled on my bed. Now the goal is to fold it all before it give up and throw it all on the floor. I should really stop that. Tonight I went to a pool party at my bishop's house and then we went to see fireworks. We were so close to the fireworks. They were right over us and we could see where they were lighting them. Awesome!

I hope everyone's 4th was fabulous!

The last Two Weeks

The last two weeks have been NUTS!! Seriously. So good. And sooooo bad.

Lets recap.

I made my parents their anniversary gift, which seriously stressed me out. I took it to the party and overall I would say it turned out pretty good.

Abdoul and I broke up. Im back in the LDS world as a single person again. Which kinda makes me wanna kill myself sometimes.

On vacation, I flew to Indiana and my brother picked me up. I got to hang out with him and Erica for a couple of days. We ran around Cincinnati and went to a Reds baseball game. That was fun. The evening had super great weather.

View of Cincinnati from their back porch. Pretty great view, eh?

At the Reds game. They WON!

The party was on Saturday. I was kind of stressed out that day. But Trevor and his gf Rabita drove me around and helped me set up the decorations. Which was super nice of them.

The party started and a ton of people showed up. Way more than RSVPed. Which was okay. I think we had about 75 or

so. We had cake and punch, catered food, and alcohol. Rigel Jackson was the photographer and she did a wonderful job. (See fb album) My parents were truly surprised. They had no idea I was in town or that there was a party at all. It was great. There were people at the party from Indiana, Ohio, Kentucky, Illinois, Tennessee, Louisiana, and Texas. I really couldnt have asked for it to go better. I would say it was perfect!

I spent a few more days at home and hung out with some people I hadnt seen in a while. It was good. Nice to sleep in and not have to worry about work stuff or the regular day to day things.

Trevor and I at a bagel place. Trevor is a mess. haha.

I am back in Texas. I went to a concert at the horse racing track with Breanna. It was pretty fun. The Eli Young Band. They sing country music.

I also watched the NBA finals at a sports bar the other night and met someone. Yeah, thats right, I met a guy.

This is how i looked that night! :)

I am sooooooo not the type of girl that can move from one guy to the next and not even miss a beat. Not even a little bit. I have always envied those girls but that has never been my life or my story, so I was just as surprised as all of you that I met someone. I guess i was the one who initiated the flirting (from a distance. you know, a quick smile, a raised eyebrow, etc). But he was the one who approached me after a while. We chatted for about two and a half hours actually. He is super nice, and funny, and laughs at lots of things i say. Ya know, sounds pretty typical of flirting when you first meet someone. He got my number and asked when he could see me again.

He ended up coming over a few days later to hang out. He was here for a few hours. It was fun. I am not sure that we are quite a right fit for each other. Even for dating. As i get to know him more, I just dont see it. Not that there is anything wrong with him, I just think Abdoul is still too fresh in my mind. I thought i was fine. I was completely over it. I felt good. Haven't been crying since before i met this new guy. I have no regrets with Abdoul, or feel like I shouldn't have ended things. Buuuuuut, as I am getting out there, everything that happens either reminds me of Ab or reminds me of how different it is than how Ab would do it, or say it. So, I just dont think I have really moved on as much as I thought.

But I can honestly say that I have been giving it a good effort to move on. And that is a lot more than I can say for any other past relationships of mine.

Other than that, I have been working out a lot. I have been hanging out with my friend Breanna a lot. I have a few new projects that I am going to be working on. (get excited!!) A mama cat had 6 baby kittens on my back patio while I was on vacation. They are pretty cute. Annnnd I just bought a pair of jeans from Old Navy today for $0.87. Get it!!

Life is pretty good. :)

21.2

For those of you who don't know, I turned 21 again yesterday. People asked me all day how old I turned, and I just felt like 21 was probably a good answer. So here we go again! Bring it on 21! Bring it on!

I really did have a great birthday! Here is what I did, just in case you were dying to know (I'm guessing not, haha). I woke up. Cleaned my apartment (it was seriously nasty). I went and got a pedicure. Fabulous! I went and picked up The Man. We ran a few errands. Then he took me to On The Border to eat. After seeing the kind of humiliation they inflicted on someone else with a birthday yesterday (with loud singing and clapping and yelling) we decided it was best to not tell them it was my bday. Then we went back to my apartment and chilled out for a bit. Let our overly full bellies rest.

We then headed over to Main Event (it is a place where you can bowl, play pool, shuffle board, play acarde games, eat, watch sports, etc) where a bunch of my friends had gathered to hang out and wish me a happy birthday. Ab and I bowled four games, i think. He beat me every time. One of the games he only beat me by one point. But he told me beforehand that his goal was to at least beat me. He didnt care if everyone else beat us, but he wasn't coming in last. haha. and he did. Other people played pool. It was a really good night and we had fun. I got to finally show off my man, which i was seriously stoked about. To every person i introduced him to, I announced him as, "this is my BOYFRIEND, Abdoul." Haha. i am silly. i know, but at least i embrace it, right? One of my friends/church buddy, came up to me after she met him, and was like... "Alllllllison....okay, but really. He is. He is just...(pause)" I was like, "I know. He is sexy!" and she was like, "Yeeeeeeeeah!" lol. Love it! But anyways, we had fun. Ab said that he had fun. He fell asleep in the car when i was driving him home. I guess I wore him out.

Either way, it ranks up there with my top few birthdays even though it was pretty low key. Holla'!

Alex

Dewey

Brandon, Suzanne, Lori, Lynette

Lori

Virgil and Justin in the back, Natalie and Alex in the middle, and Keith in the front!

And finally!!!! A good pic of me and the man! I am a little sweaty, but still a great photo! Looooove this kid! :)

Stock Yards

I went to the Fort Worth Stock Yards. I have been once before, but this time it was really busy. And super humid. I didn't stay long. But at the stock yards they have cattle that they move from place to place so you can see them, and cowboys and cowgirls on horses. Everyone is decked out. You can ride a horse drawn carriage. There are lots of shops where you can buy anything with the word "Texas" on it. You can also buy cowboy hats and little trinkets. There are places to eat and bars. It is all around pretty fun. I took a few pictures. Everything is all the stereotypes that you think of for Texas! :)

This guy is by far my favorite!! I mean check out that stance he has. He knows he's got this (whatever "this" is). Cigarette is hanging out of his mouth. Soooooo Texas! HAHA! loved him!

Easter Sunday

So today I went with Alex to her mom's house for Easter. Her mom wanted us to go to church with her so we got up at the crack of dawn (or so it felt like) and drove the hour and a half to get to her mom (and stepdad's) house. They live in the middle of nowhere. Really NOWHERE! So we immediately leave for church. The church was in the middle of nowhere too. It was a Baptist church.

Sidebar: I'm a little tainted when it comes to baptist churches. I have been ruined. I have a fear walking into any baptist church that they will find out I am Mormon and immediately attack me. Probably irrational, but it has really happened before...more times than I want to think about.

Anyways, we go and I have to say, that I totally fell in love with these people. You know when you think of Texas you think of people in cowboy boots, boot cut jeans with suspenders, riding a horse? Well that isn't really Texas. I mean, yes there are people like that, but I live in a huge metroplex with almost 5 million people. So we/they look like anyone else. But the people at this church were every stereotype that you can think of for Texas. When the first person got up to announce what song we would be singing first, I really had to lean over to Alex and ask if he was speaking English. I couldn't understand a word he was saying because his accent was so thick. Seriously. He was wearing "Levi's" not jeans. That isn't what you call them in the back woods of Texas. Cowboy boots. Suspenders. And talked about Jesus like He was his best friend. It was a simple message of how Jesus had risen and could help us sinners make it to Heaven because he died and rose again. Everyone was so friendly and came up and shook our hands and were so welcoming. People shouted Amen! and Praise Jesus! during the message. It made my heart happy to see good people worshipping our Heavenly Father in the best way that they were taught. They were happy people who love Jesus, and would bring him up in random conversations. Love it!

Maybe its because I grew up Methodist but it arises something nostalgic in me when I go to Protestant churches every now and then. The message is always simple. The people openly love God and Jesus and they try their best to be good people. Not to say that LDS people don't do this too. Maybe it is just me. Maybe I just get too stressed. I worry too much. I over think. But I feel like I have so many things to worry about being LDS. Am I worthy to take the sacrament? Have I been to the temple often enough? Am I keeping the word of wisdom correct? Am I working hard enough on my calling? Have I done my VT? Am I up to date on my tithing? Have I read my scriptures often enough? Are my prayers sincere enough? Are they too repetitive?

Does anyone else stress out this much? Is that how it is supposed to be? I honestly don't know. But sometimes I do miss the simpleness I felt when I was Methodist. Does that make me a bad person?? (There I go again, worrying...)

Do not get me wrong, I 1000% believe in the LDS faith. I know it is right. And I know I can be/ and have been happy living the way I know I should. I guess maybe I just worry I don't do enough. I am not doing it right, or something.

*shrug*

It was a good Sunday, though. I ate way too much delicious Easter food.

I hope everyone had an excellent Easter!

Some Perspective

Sometimes I just need to get out and try to see my life from a different view. Get some new perspective. Ya know? That is just what i did today.

Me+a gorgeous day+a park+some trails+my ipod w/ some EFY music=Perspective. Check!

I went to a park in Arlington called Randol Mill Park. It is the site of my December 5k, so I am a little familiar.

Don't I look all perspective-y? lol.

So pretty

Okay, so there was this cute little family having family photos taken. The dad and the little baby girl you can barely see in the top left corner. He was trying to get her to stand so the photographer could get a pic of it. She fell every time. He would pick her back up and put her on her feet and she was immediately plop down her her bum again. He did this at least 15 times. He was ever so patient with her. Finally she stayed up. Wobbled a little, but stayed standing. Her dad move away a few feet and the photographer snapped 3 quick photos. And then she plopped down on her bum again. This little family made me smile though. They were super cute!

This lady was reading a book with her dogs. She seemed very peaceful. Later I passed by her on one of the trials. Her dogs were terrified of me. haha. I dont know why.

Great Sunday afternoon!